What's going through my head right now #29

‘Rest, restes, have a rest’

Over the last few days, I have been thinking about what topic to cover in the new newsletter. What has excited me, what has inspired me, what is worth pondering? What could inspire my readers, how could I take them on a journey into my world?

Until now, topics have usually arisen spontaneously, simply jumping out at me, besieging me, occupying me so much that it was easy for me to make a selection, formulate my thoughts and insights as well as my experiences, and finally share them.

This week, nothing has stuck to my heels yet, nothing is so intrusive that I would have to deal with it over several stages. Well, now I'm standing here and don't know what to write about.

Perhaps it also has something to do with the fact that I am currently very at peace with myself. I am not under a lot of pressure, don't have to constantly organise things, am not constantly on the go, and have the leisure to put things off or do them in stages. The balance between my private life, work and social environment is very even. My threshold for irritability or fatigue is very high, so it's hardly ever exceeded, and I have little desire for isolation or retreat. I enjoy the mix of being at home, working in Zurich and Jona, and spending time with friends.

And honestly, I hardly know any different. For the last forty years, my life has been dominated by dance, theatre and creativity. For as long as I can remember, I have been in leadership positions. Whether it was my own ensemble, independent productions or management positions in theatres or training centres. Even with my book, I invested and organised a great deal myself. A permanent state. The battery always on the charger. A balancing act that, despite all the success (of course there were also defeats, which I mostly used as motivation and reflection exercises), constantly and without much of a break demanded my strength, my mind and my soul.

The kind of peace, time and serenity I am currently experiencing (what a beautiful word, ‘experience’: to experience life...) feels unfamiliar and yet so healing. I can only recommend it. Perhaps it is precisely this peace that is the breeding ground from which the most interesting ideas and new projects grow – not in the hustle and bustle, but in silence. For me, this means learning to say no. Not accepting every request. Consciously leaving gaps in my calendar. And accepting that doing nothing can also be productive, allowing me to gather my strength and move towards whatever may come.

The task now is to find the right balance and maintain it over a longer period of time. What emerges from this – practical creativity, tangible sensuality and an irrepressible zest for life – is entirely in my hands.

So I'll keep at it, enjoy this state of being and wish you all a good, new week ahead.